Disappoint

We can’t live with frustration on your head can we?

The thing about disappointment is that sometimes it could be carried everywhere all the time. It’s a burden that we intentionally throw on our shoulders even though what we really want to do is to let it go. It’s just that, I don’t know, we are compelled to see the underachieving side of our life more than acknowledging that we’ve accomplished a lot of things.

If all those disappointments could be milestones to change our life to be better, then they’re good. The thing that is not good? We tend to let all those disappointments to devour our mind. We continue to live with the fact that we are not entitled to good things. We think that even if we try and try, we can’t reach the height that we aim for.

We’ve failed ourselves by being disappointed with our life.

Dreaming of Flying

Hey there peeps!

It’s the mid-term holiday now, so at least I can breathe a little and perhaps try to finish my homework, but of course, I also find some moments to do what I love the most, photomanipulation!

So, here’s my latest one, Dreaming of Flying. Creating photomanipulation is such a great way to release all the emotions that you have inside you… though you need not be stressed in creating one.

More information on this piece here!

Wish

‘The world is not a wish-granting factory’ – it’s a sentence from one of my all-time favourite books, The Fault in Our Stars by John Green.

You know, many things happened to me and I know what it feels like to not have your wish granted. It hurts, sometimes not that hard, but in many instances, it feels like a hundred tonnes of steel just come crashing down on your spine. When I didn’t get the result that I wanted for my previous semester - that freaking hurt and I say that I was terribly downhearted. When I could not give the best for my presentations or tests, I tend to keep my feelings inside. When I did anything wrong even if my mistake was small, I got all fidgety, panicky.

Then again, I can get over with all those things because I intend to gain back what I’ve lost or do even better in every action I’ll commit.

There are many other times when I really want certain things to become reality, one dream is stronger than the other and I really have one right now, but that will never be real because it’s not meant to be real. This dream just stays like it is supposed to be: a dream. I wish I can just stop my head from giving me pain, but it’s tough, because I have never feel this way before.

Yes, it is always painful when we want something that we know we will never get. Still, in the absence of reality, even constructing the dream in our mind is just as good.

A Little Change

New haircut for April, well, my first sidecut really, but it is not that obvious. Anyway, I am not really a kind of person who combs and applies wax on his hair after a bath, but now, I'm gonna change a bit. Haha~

I must say, I kinda like this new look! Haha~ [And ummm, ignore my emotionless face. Heheh]

Farewell to Innocence

I am everything

made up
of nothing
crammed with
voids
voiced with
silence

An
adulterated
child’s
deconstructed
reality
sterling past
dims
the fire is
now blue

I am
Icarus
I say
farewell
as I crash
to the
ground