I learn to be a teacher. I learn to learn. I learn to give what I learn to my future students. I learn because I want to, because I want to be somebody. Somebody that the future me will be proud for.
I learn to say goodbye, because goodbye is not an end. Goodbye's just a word. Goodbye is when you know that in the future, you'll see them again, somehow, somewhere.
I learn to be free. Let myself be free. Discover every possibilities that come. Get my voice to be heard. It grows, and still grows. Learn to let loose more, little by little, because I'm not one before, and might still be, right now.
I learn to admit my mistakes, for making errors, is a quality, albeit unlike, that occur in all human, and no human have ever lived without making one.
I learn. What I've not learn? A lot more.
I learn. Not because I had to. It's because, that's what we all supposed to do.
This all comes from a young adult who never have been in this type of feeling before. So, at any points, it may become a useless junk of crap [?] or start to look movie-like. If you are unacceptable to that kind of situation, please kindly move your cursor to the × above, thank you.
Being a human, that's what we are, we will never know our future. Heck, no one knows what the things installed for them. Nevertheless, we have the possibilities and choices to determine our lives, isn't it? But, what about love? An epic and amazing feeling that everyone will encounter a lot of times in our short lives on the face of the earth though there is definitely a time when we'll have this head-over-heels feeling over somebody. That somebody? Possibly one that we expected, or never unexpected before.
You fall in love with that one person from far-flung places, or the neighbour just beside your home. You fall in love with that somebody, your best friend for the last 10 years of your life or someone that you had just met in the last 10 seconds. You fall in love with someone you hated the most, because that person is mischievous, always made fun of you, or you could fall in love with this person who secretly admires you too. You fall in love in a romantic coffee shop, or maybe in the dirty bus stop.
The thing I want to say is, love comes unexpectedly, at the most unexpected time, in the most unexpected place. If fate says so, it will be so. We may find ourselves watching someone, secretly because we, sort of, like them, but as what other human would do, and I think I would do the same too, we just look at that single person, leaving us with the question 'what if'. We left one place, and thought that this long-distance relationships won't work, just like 90% of the others [this is just an example], but, hey, it works, and as you think that that will work, fate has given you something unexpected, you'll go back to your hometown. Leaving your love ones here, meeting your love ones there. One moment ago, you thought, no way I will ever fall in love with that person. Moments later, something new grows deep in your heart.
You love that person with all your heart, that's for sure. No problems. You are being romantic [or may not], you treat her by buying that person gifts [or even not], or eating in a fancy restaurant [or just a warung stall near the road corner]. When love comes, everything is so nice, the world seems different, you just think about that person - oh boy, now I'm really putting in some movie scripts. When life tells you that you should depart from that person, you cry. You will not accept it. This is not true, this can't be happening to me. Basically, this is what most of us do. Surely, it's okay to be sad if anything goes wrong. No one can mend it but us. Time passed, maybe we can be better by a year from now, but I will still think of that person. We think love is only for that one, single human.
But - if I'm wrong, correct me on this - I do think love is the power that keeps human from hurting each other. Love is the engine that keeps us to put in trust to different people we love each, and every single day. Love is the feeling that keeps us awake every morning, knowing that our heart do long from somebody, one, two, or a multitude of person. because love is not about romantic relationship you have with this single person. Love is about the bonds that keep you going strong all over these years: Mother, father, grandparents, family, friends, teachers, even your pet kitten. You don't forget these persons just because you had just gave half of your heart to other one person. We are nobody to love for if not for them. We learn about this beautiful feeling from lots of people, in example, our parents, that give us love, and let us love them. We never learn about loving someone, if not for them.
Well, love is indeed, a great something. A feeling indescribable. For love is humanity. And love, it just come. Unstoppable. Unexpected. Just want to end this with something: You are nice, and you will find someone worthy of you.
Maybe you won't even bother to read this, but whatever it is, this is:
WHAT WAS YOUR: 1. Last beverage: Iced Milo [just one hour ago, and my face is now 'Milo Peng Face'] 2. Last phone call: Mus [Akmar wanted his motor key] 4. Last song you listened to: Take These Wings [Our choir song] 5. Last time you cried: Well, some know when
HAVE YOU EVER: 6. Dated someone twice: Never been in love 7. Been cheated on: See above 8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Nope, never kiss anyone that made me regret about it 9. Lost someone special: Still alive 10. Been depressed: When assignments arrive... Haha 11. Been drunk and threw up: Never! Throw up, well... That's yes
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS: 12. Blue 13. Red 14. Black
THIS YEAR (2010) HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: The juniors I think. Oh, and some IPG friends 16. Fallen out of love: Never, never, never! 17. Laughed until you cried: Uncountable 18. Met someone who changed you: Not yet 19. Found out who your true friends were: Ermmm... 20. Found out someone was talking about you: Hahah 21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Euwwwwwwww~! 22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: A lot lar 23. How many kids do you want to have: They'll make a football team... Hahah 25. Do you want to change your name: Proud of it 26. What did you do for your last birthday: Celebrated it with my twin, Zell, and my friends in IPG's cafe 27. What time did you wake up today: 6.30am? 28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Online 29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Hari Raya~! 30. Last time you saw your Mother: In my blog... Her pic in there 31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Be fatter? 32. What are you listening to right now: How I Met Your Mother [My roomie play it in his computer] 33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Nope, but I read about him [in To Kill a Mockingbird... Poor him... Hahah] 34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Nothing 35. Most visited webpage: I love FB, Wikipedia, and blogs~! 37. Nicknames: One official, Afiq 38. Relationship Status: Single, unavailable [Hahah] 39. Zodiac sign: Capricornus 40. Male or female?: Boy~! Huhuh 41. Elementary?: SK Teluk Ketapang 42. High school?: Form 1-3: SMKA Tok Jiring / Form 4-5 and Form Lower 6: SMK Ibrahim Fikri 43. College? : IPG Kampus Gaya, taking the course of PISMP TESL (SM) 44. Hair colour: Black, as all Malaysian SHOULD be 45. Long or short?: Short 47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Nope 48. What do you like about yourself?: Huhuh 49. Piercings: Euwwwwwwww~! 50. Tattoos: Yucks~! 51. Righty or lefty: Lefthanded, not right, surely not ambidextrous...
FIRSTS : 52. First surgery: Never, I think 53. First piercing: I told ya~! 54. First best friend: Hrmmmmm... 55. First sport you joined: Errrr... I hate sports... 56. First vacation: Langkawi when I was 2-3 years old... [I couldn't remember it because of Child Amnesia... Huarrrghhh] 58. First pair of trainers : Cannot remember
RIGHT NOW : 59. Eating: One hour ago, not now 60. Drinking: No 61. I'm about to: blog again? 62. Listening to: How I Met Your Mother 63. Waiting on: You? Hahah
YOUR FUTURE : 64. Want kids?: If I don't want them, then I'm not human 65. Get Married?: Sure 66. Career?: Teacher~!
WHICH IS BETTER : 67. Lips or eyes: Depends 68. Hugs or kisses: Errr... 69. Shorter or taller: Preferably short, but if she's tall, I don't mind it too 70. Older or Younger: Younger, but that's not the problem 71. Romantic or spontaneous: Both, but I'm so not that romantic. Hahah
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Euwwwwwwwwwwww...! Not that far, please... Hahah 73. Sensitive or loud: Need both 74. Hook-up or relationship: Hook-up's not good. Relationship's great 75. Trouble maker or hesitant:mischevious?: A lil' bit of both? Heheh
HAVE YOU EVER : 76. Kissed a stranger: Never want to do it 77. Drank hard liquor: Never ever! 78. Lost glasses/contacts: Don't wear them 79. *BLAB* on first date: Never had a date 80. Broken someone's heart: Never
83. Turned someone down: As far as i remember, never 84. Cried when someone died: What do you think? 85. Fallen for a friend?: Nope
DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 86. Yourself: I have too 87. Miracles: Totally 88. Love at first sight: Well, I do believe it 89. Heaven: Always 90. Santa Claus: No, no, no~! 91. Kiss on the first date: Haram 92. Angels: Of course I do
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY: 94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: Girl friends yes. Girlfriends, never had them 95. Did you sing today?: Maybe? 96. Ever cheated on somebody?: Hahah 97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go: Never even if I can, because those mistakes make made me who I am now 98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: A lot, maybe? 99. Are you afraid of falling in love : I think so... but, really, I don't know 100. Posting this as 100 truths?: Huhuh
Today is the day of Sukan Antara Divisi ke-41[41st Inter-Division Games]IPG Kampus Gaya and it was held, in guess what? Stadium Likas~! Wow... usually things like this would only be held in the college's ground... With bus, we arrived there in 7am. Early, but the feeling's great.... Huhuh. So, here're the highlights:
[By the way, I'm in WAJA]
I was the AJK Pelepas, together with Hamy, Fred, and Mussie. What AJK Pelepas? Well, we're actually the helpers of the people who said, READY?, GET SET, *Bang* [the sound of pistol]. Without us, each race cannot begin... So, we're pretty important I guess... Hahah... Loving it. Being the AJK is definitely satisfying and I learned a lot, and of course I can use it in the future.
For two weeks [including the days we had rain], we practiced and practiced for our procession. It was quite hard, since I have no experience of entering a procession before... Huhuh... But, it is great. We made an arrow formation, and stumped our feet so many times, and said 'Waja gemilang, ooo, Waja gemilang, huarghh~!'... Hoooooooooooooooo~! Our hard work definitely paid off, in the form that we won the second place. OK la... It may not be the first, but JADILAH~!
We [my team, WAJA, yellow ok?] won a lot of medals in Track and Field, we won the second place in Procession and third place in Cheering, and one of our athlete grabbed the trophy for the best female athlete. We screamed and shouted and made some noise and cheered for our team and made Mexican Waves~! FUN~!So, what to say? We won, we won, we won! GO WAJA~!!! Hahah...
We can't change fate. That is the truth. What we can do, is to accept it with open hearts and just suck it up and think of our future. The future will be different, that's for sure, but we'll still have places to hold on to.
It is funny to think again about what we have been through all this time. We learn, we grow, we laugh, we share our feelings, all together. We are crazy, perhaps the craziest bunch of people around here. That's something to be proud to. Well, maybe...
Some, or rather a lot of our tutors told us, and still tell us to seek knowledge deeply, not just for our days as the students, but in the days when we become the teachers to our children and ourselves. It's not hard to understand things but the hard thing to do is to explain what we understand to other people. We have a long way to learn.
Life is not about having sadness all the time. It is about how we conquer the sadness and change it into something positive that can flame us to be happy and work towards achieving it's contentment. No man's life is perfect, but no man's life is too bad to be good either. It's all about living and making it as great as we can, and we can.
Dreams do come true, after all. Our dreams are the testament of our life. We want to be this. We want to be that. We want to have this, or maybe that. Still, as true as dreams can be, it is upon us to take charge and turn it into reality, but don't let dreams to take charge in you. You may find yourself stranded somewhere far from your real selves.
Thanks to all the smiles you have give to me and all of us. I appreciated them all. It made my life a lot better. It made me a lot better. May God Bless You.