a blue night

a night like this
cold, hushed, hued blue by the
moon in an arc,
fenced by constellations.

and i, lost in time, 
lost in thoughts,
a truth, one so close
i choose to
distance myself.

hurt in all its forms
pain in all its glory
sadness but no tears nor cries
only a word of silence
slicing like a rusty knife
savaging the deepest
darkest abyss of an icy heart.

memories not made to last
blown away like pieces
of paper written with empty
hopes, useless happiness,
carried into the shadows.

and i am lost in time, 
lost in thoughts,

lost in a blue night
like this
lips frozen shut
a fool's behaviour
a blue night turning into

a blue day tomorrow
tick tock goes the clock.